lost in thought

i love the fact that i can sit in a place motionless, totally oblivious to the world, not caring for a thing other than myself.

i lean back in the recliner, grabbing a shawl to wrap around me. the room's a perfect temperature, a lamp turned on in the corner giving just enough light to form long, dark shadows. the music's playing in the background, loud enough to give me company while not disturbing my thoughts. i close my eyes and relish in this eerie calmness. ah, perfect!

suddenly i'm jolted out of my thoughts by a particularly disturbing one. my heart seems to be working in overdrive, pumping blood so fast that i can feel it gushing up and down my body. my ears start to go red, goosebumps start to erupt and a shiver makes its way down my spine.

i want to break free; free from the shackles my thoughts have created around me. i want to get rid of the cord holding me down. i want to live again, feel alive again, radiate life again.