friendship

how does one classify a friend? why is one person a better friend than the other? shouldn't they be classified into acquaintances and friends? why is it that you keep on going back to this one person forever till they make it stop? isn't that bordering on infatuation?

life without friends would be such a bore. you would never have anyone to fall back on, never have anyone to share your deep dark secrets with, never have anyone to reminisce over life with. i think every person should have that one best friend who you would go back to regardless of whatever situation you've put yourself in. however embaressing, however aggravating, however frustrating, you know you can count on this one soul to put everything in perspective and figure out everything for you.

why sit and ponder over situations when you can go and discuss them. doesn't discussion produce great ideas? but what do u do when you're in a situation where you need to help the other? you can either extend your hand and guide them through each and every turn while bearing the brunt of their frustration at choosing such a straight, boring old path or you can just sit back and see them stumble but know for a fact that they love this situation more even though the end result is going to be a disappointment.

how does one rationalize between one's own and other's preferences? how do you know what you're thinking is actually YOU thinking and not you thinking about HER? there's a fine line between suggesting and forcing and that is the thin little line of friendship as well. wouldn't this world be a much better place if there were no emotions? no worries about what the other person is feeling and no worries about you hurting them. you can walk right up to them, offer your opinion, bang it in and just go back home content that you've made your point and it will be followed. aaah, if friendship were that easy!

then again, that's what makes friendship what it is; a deep link between two souls who would sacrifice anything to make the other person happy even if they have to let go of their own interests and ignore their own heart. once the two individuals involved realise this, life will be as sweet as honey!

closure

this desperation, dislocation, separation, condemnation, isolation, desolation...let it go

life, in my opinion, has this weird way of getting back at us for some past little sin that we did eons back. just when you think it has been forgiven and forgotten, life plays such a twist in your life that you just have to stop and wonder what prompted such a violent reaction. i think life is like a conservative exhibitionist (if there ever is such a thing); it gives you enough of a peek to arouse your sensations but just when you think you've solved it, BAM! it hits you right in the face and leaves you out to dry.

closure is just another perverse means of entertainment for life. you think and ponder for days, weeks, months and even years and finally come up with the guts to put closure to something and just as soon as that closure is accepted, you feel all the wind being sucked out of your lungs, leaving you breathless and broken. the easiest thing to move on from is forced closure where nothing's under your control. at least you know you couldn't have done anything more so you can accept the decision. when closure is brought about by you and you know it's the right thing to do but you just cannot make your heart accept it, it just kills you. it's like a worm eating you from the inside and you don't even know anything about it till it takes over your whole life.

how does one get over such things? people say time heals all wounds but do you honestly want to hear such a 'promising' phrase when you're suffering? i guess there is no other option but to accept it and move on. life is weird, it's wicked and vicious. live with it...