exhilaration

life is so fickle. we switch from sadness to happiness, disappointment to jubilation, resentment to contentment in a matter of minutes. maybe that's what makes life interesting and worth looking forward to!

have you ever felt at the top of the world and not been able to share the happiness with anyone else? feel as if you have so much to say but no one to say to? want to share your achievement with someone but no one's there to listen?

i have all this pent-up energy in me waiting to be let out, waiting to see some daylight and free itself from the confines of my brain where it gets buried under layers and layers of pessimism and disappointments. just when life seems to become an eternal drag, you see that ray of sunlight at the far end of the tunnel and start walking towards it only to see that every step you take is converted into a giant leap and before you know it, you have rays of sunlight hitting your face; you can smell the fresh air, the fragrance of flowers and experience life as it's meant to be.

suddenly, you realise how satisfied and happy you are but only have a handful of people worth sharing this sense of contentment with. even from those, you realistically only have just one person, that one soul in this world who knows you like a book, to really express your feelings to and feel the rush of blood and witness the same rush on the other person's face. ironically, that is exactly the one person you cannot share your emotions with for this particular moment and all that rush of energy vanishes in a blink of an eye.

exhilaration, definitely an overrated emotion!